Drawings / Board 1
The Path of Tears
Defoliation
oil chalk
The tree sheds its canopy in autumn. The leaves fall like women’s tears. The leaves, i.e. tears, completely cover the ground. The painting can be interpreted in several ways. We can call it a synonym of withering youth.
But we can also think about it in the way that in order to renew, we must first lose ourselves, a part of ourselves.
Harvest of memories
oil chalk
The fruit of the tree, the teardrop-shaped pear – falls from the tree as it is already ripe. What is ready, what has developed, what has grown up, separates from us. Separation and letting go are always painful. After all, something passes, ends. Fruits represent the results of our thought processes, our ideas, our dreams, our desires, our fantasies. Thus, this image also expresses our unrealized dreams and desires – everything that was not achieved.
I only cry for a man
oil chalk
The woman’s gaze is lost in the distance. Here, the teardrop running down the woman’s face is a tie, which is a symbol of masculinity. She longs for love, a confidential, intimate, warm relationship.
Tatyana's letter
oil chalk
Tatyana, the heroine of Pushkin’s Onegin, is hopelessly in love with Onegin, who doesn’t even notice. Tatyana admits her feelings and writes a letter to the man:
„I write to you . . . when that is said
What more is left for me to say ?
Now you are free (I know too well)
To heap contempt upon my head.„
(Translated by Rosa Newmarch)
Tatyana longs for Onegin. In the picture, the tear falling from Tatyana’s eye is replaced by a pen. Ink drips from the tip of the pen, these also symbolize Tatyana’s tears. The woman also holds a pen in her hand. The picture is framed by the opening lines of Tatyana’s letter written in Cyrillic script.
That Makes Me Cry (Onion)
oil chalk and computer graphics
It happens to us that we are affected by such influences and events that make us cry. At such times, we cannot stop crying. We are not the masters of our emotions, but they burst out on us. In such cases, we are at the mercy of our own emotions. We can hardly hide our sorrow from the outside world. The painting expresses this vulnerability.
In a prison of emotions
oil chalk
Sometimes it happens that we become a prisoner of a painful emotion for a long time. We become prisoners, languishing in the prison of our own feelings. We long for happiness, maybe we even work for it, but we can’t break out of the captivity of our own emotions. If we release our tears, if we release crying, we often feel relieved, for a while for sure. Our pains are dissolved by our tears, they cease to exist. The drops of salt water running down our faces melt the bars of the prison of our painful feelings, we can get rid of our mental anguish through tears. Crying can set us free. In the painting, the teardrops fall down like melted pieces of grid.
Interrogation - that is, when you light up into my eyes, I cry
oil chalk and computer graphics
It’s dark. Only one candle burns. A tear falls from the woman’s eye. This teardrop is also the flame of the candle that is held directly in front of her face. We often cry in the strong backlight…
Lake Fairy - who begins to cry at the sight of the ecological disaster. Her tears turn into fish and the sea is repopulated.
oil chalk and computer graphics
The Lake Fairy is sad because she sees that the fish have died out of the lake where she lives. She weeps in her grief. And see a miracle. Every single tear that falls from the eyes of the Lake Fairy turns into a colorful fish. Because tears, taking on pain, can also have creative power.
I aborted my hopes, which did not become fertile
oil chalk
We can see the tears of failure, failure to conceive. We can see the pain of the fact that something we desire, something we want cannot be created. The tears falling from the girl’s eyes in this picture are sperm cells,which were not fertilized.
Your punches and kicks make me cry
oil chalk and computer graphics
Tears appear from the eyes of the abused woman. One teardrop forms a strong fist. The other teardrop takes the shape of a shoe sole.
Your time is up
oil chalk and computer graphics
A voice speaks to her. She turns back. And the shot is already fired. That was. The picture shows the last look. The hit hits the middle of the forehead. In place of the bullet, you can see the face of a clock with blood dripping from it. The sun is setting in the background. It’s ten minutes past ten. The moon has already risen. A big bird flies on the horizon. The curve of the bird’s wings assumes the position of the hands of the clock. The clock position is the same at the headshot location. It’s ten minutes past ten.
Condemned cell
oil chalk
The tear that comes out of the woman’s eye forms the loop of a gallows. Below the noose stands a blindfolded female figure with hands tied behind her back. She is awaiting execution. A female figure can also be seen in the foreground of the picture, this woman is kneeling and praying.
Suffocating cry
oil chalk and computer graphics
Snakes come out of the woman’s eyes. In this picture, the shape of the teardrop forms the head of a snake. The teardrop-snake runs down the woman’s face and then wraps around her neck. She is suffocated by her own tears, her own sorrow. We can feel ourselves drowning in grief. And we can cry so hard we can’t breathe.
It becomes easier - It becomes tear
oil chalk and computer graphics
Our spiritual burdens can fall from us like tears. If we release our tears, we are relieved, freed from the burdens and difficulties that we are constantly carrying. In the painting, instead of tears, dumbbells roll out of the eyes, and the balls of the dumbbells change into teardrop shapes. The figure in the painting is holding a dumbbell. This also suggests that greater physical exertion can help release tension. Physical exertion rolls away the obstacles that block the free flow of tears.
I fight back my tears
oil chalk and computer graphics
When we are hot, we pull down the zipper on our jacket. Then when too much cold air comes through the opening of the clothes and we start to get cold, we pull up the zipper of our jacket. We are the same with our tears. When tension builds up in us, we let the zipper down, that is, we start to cry. Then, when we cry ourselves out and calm down, we zip it up. Our tear duct can be seen as a valve for releasing our internal tensions.
The sun always shines behind the clouds
oil chalk and computer graphics
The girl’s eyes are covered by clouds. The clouds cover her eyes like fashionable sunglasses. We don’t know if the lady’s eyes are happy or sad. We do not see the mirrors of her soul. We only see the clouds and that it is raining. The tears here are raindrops and cover the entire face. Water is the source of life. Rainwater feeds the lake on which two ships sail. Rainwater waters the trees and supplies the village with water. Tears give water to the living world.
Insomnia
oil chalk and computer graphics
It’s night time. She’s so sleepy her eyes are watering. She still can’t sleep. Tears of fatigue wash her face.
Libra-eyed Iustitia - whose eyes don't look good either
oil chalk
Iustitia is the goddess of truth and justice in ancient Roman mythology. Iustitia was always depicted blindfolded and holding scales. The combination of the blindfold and the scales in the hand symbolized objectivity and freedom from partiality. It symbolized that a just decision is made only if the identity of the parties does not matter. Only the deed matters, the deed itself is the subject of the case. Iustitia could not see the people who turned to her for justice, she weighed the arguments and counter-arguments on pharmacy scales.
In my painting, I depicted all this a little twisted. The scales replaced the blindfold. The pans of the scales are the eyes themselves in my picture. Neither eye is in its anatomical position. The right eye is slightly lower than its anatomical position, while the left eye is slightly higher than its anatomical position. Although the painting is balanced in this way, the symmetry is lost on the face, so we can feel that something is overturned in the painting. The nose is formed by the body of the scale, while the mouth is formed by the base of the scale.
The image expresses that objectivity, impartiality, freedom from prejudice is only an idea, since we can never completely separate ourselves from our own vision and worldview. Thus, we ourselves are present in all our judgments. All our judgments contain the experiences of our lives so far, the experiences and influences that have affected us.
Hail, Caesar, those who are about to die salute you!
oil chalk and computer graphics
„Ave, Caesar, morituri te salutant!”
In the background, you can see the fight of gladiators. One gladiator’s index finger points up – asking for mercy. No mercy. The thumb of the deciding hand points down. The gladiator’s eyeball transforms into a downward-pointing hand. The thumb becomes the last tear from the eye, which slowly transforms into a drop of blood. A bloody tear runs down the gladiator’s face.
The pain of the world
oil chalk and computer graphics
The Earth is a teardrop in space emerging from the Great Eye.
The woman who sat on her own head - during the day
oil chalk
A woman with a very long nose, because her nose is also her foot. No head? But there is. She sits on it.
The woman who sat on her own head - at night
oil chalk
A woman with a long nose. Her nose is also her foot in high heels. Torso? No, because she has a head – she sits on it. Torso? Yes, as her body ends at her neck.
When the oppressive environment affects you
oil chalk
The girl is sitting in a room covered with depressing wallpaper. If she looks at this wallpaper a lot, her eyes start to dazzle, she gets dizzy. The wallpaper consists of a downward pattern of mismatched blue and green colors. And the same chain pattern runs down her face like tears and drops not as tears, but as row pattern pieces.
Everything that surrounds us affects us. It is difficult to detach ourselves from our environment. It is difficult for us to live without depending on our environment. The tension caused by the negative radiation environment runs along the woman’s cheeks.
I'm falling to pieces - Puzzle
oil chalk
When we are faced with many difficulties, we can feel like we are falling apart. The tear falling from the lady’s eye in the painting becomes the fitting head of the puzzle piece. We can see that two pieces of the puzzle have already fallen, leaving a dark void in their place. A lack arises in us. We have lost something. Often just ourselves. But we can put ourselves back together from these pieces. Parts can become whole again.
Build your castle from your tears! - Tetris
oil chalk
Tears appear one after the other in the woman’s eyes and fall down like Tetris shapes. If you manage to match the Tetris shape in the right place, the castle will be built. Tetris is a building game. The events, happenings, and experiences of our lives can also be considered as building blocks, i.e. bricks. Consequently, our pains can also be building materials. If we start to build something from our tears, we give meaning to the pain we experience. With this approach, we make useful the hurtful events, happenings, and experiences. We can turn bad into good.
Eclectic - I carry my cross
oil chalk
This painting was included in this selection only because of its technique and style. Because in terms of its subject matter, it fits into a different thematic area, and thus into a different group.
We live in the age of symbols. Symbols became fashionable. While the symbols became empty. The picture is about how different, often contradictory symbols boil into one symbol. We, the people of today, are characterized by a mental, emotional and worldview disorder.
We organize our lives along conflicting ideologies and worldviews. We want to be both good and bad, holy and profane, spiritual and materialistic, modern and traditional, trendy and those seeking ancient values, individualists and altruists.
Many people wear an ancient symbol not out of conviction, but rather out of fashion. Many people wear a symbol without even knowing its exact meaning. By doing so they deprive the symbol of its original sacred meaning. The symbol is thus made profane, or desecrated or reinterpreted.
Many ancient symbols appear in the form world of pop culture. Musicians, fans, and people of today often wear religious symbols on themselves and on their clothes. The eclecticism of symbols characterizes the world of pop-rock and the man of today. Rockers – men too – wear jewelry, often a cross, in their ears. The pitchfork, i.e. the two fingers pointing upwards, is another symbol of rocker culture. It expresses rebellion.
In the picture, I combined the two symbols, the sacred and the profane. With this, I hold a crooked mirror to our world.
